Back to basics

Perhaps it's a worldwide phenomenon that everyone will try to put you in their own frame, viewpoint, order and criticize if you are doing something opposite.
Or it's just me who feels it as an issue.
It is commonly accepted that in Latvia you have a certain flow of life - you graduate, you start working, meanwhile getting so called serious boyfriend, leaving parents house, making career, getting married, having kids and then by age of 35-40 you can look back at your life and say that you did well. You run so fast through life fighting with everyone and everything to achieve what needs to be achieved and then you realize that life is passing by. You do "what needs to be done", what is correct by some unwritten rules.
No, I don't know. I suppose what others might suppose and what I see around (subjectively, of course).
That was also my plan and it worked quite well until I was here until middle of my Bachelor studies.
But then I changed the environment and realized things are different. World is different and much more bigger than I thought - i.e., maybe the right word is not bigger, but that there IS something behind borders of Latvia. (And being part of the world, doesn't mean to stop being Latvian.)
Since then I have a feeling of looking for something. I still don't know what and how but I don't feel fitting into the "normal" universally recognized Latvian lifestyle.
Yet I am here and back in the start position - the same as when graduating high school. In a Master program with 10 000 new things and learning many almost from the scratch, though, I thought I knew something from social sciences, the same living place, changing several public transports to get somewhere and carefully planning the budget but looking at the world differently.
Hope the last thing will help to understand how, why and where to aim next.

Back to Latvia: 3rd day

You go away just for 5 months and even the favorite ATM has changed its place.
Time in Mexico didn't exist and I still have a feeling that I left just yesterday but it is different to be back. Especially not knowing for how long - don't ask me that. I do have thousand great plans and I will fulfill at least some of them. And - yes, we're still together and that's the best thing that has ever happened.

2 and a half days spent here and my balance:
Forgotten PIN code, getting lost in Riga's public transportation, new tunnel to get to train station, old Russian speaking men conversations in train about good old Soviet times and how smart was Stalin (today, of course, no one is so smart and world, i.e., Latvia, because nothing else outside former Soviet union borders simply do not exist, is going to the end), again seeing double language signs on the streets and shops, indescribable cold (ok, Siberia and other places should be colder but still) and fear to walk out for 15 min not to freeze my legs and face, application for Master studies in a field I'm sure I will love but don't know if I can take it and weak hopes to find a temporary job or projects to fit into normal Latvian life.

See u around!
In the pictures - frozen windows in the trams to my new university.