almost leaving

Do I love Latvia?
Im leaving my country tomorrow. At least for a year. As many others are doing now. Yet somehow I want to believe it's different. I feel that for me it's a must to get out and see that there is something different outside. Maybe just to understand that there is no better place than home. Or maybe to gain one more place of home. I dont know how it will go but after already living abroad for a while I've understood that going away doesnt mean disappearing forever or leaving your patriotic feelings away. I'll always be Latvian, in love with 4 seasons and quiet lifestyle. Enjoying every sunny day we get and happy about first flowers in spring. Even if abroad my nationality has other name or no one has ever known about our existence.

But in order not to become too Latvian with all the negativity that has become too current now...its a must to see that there are bigger cities, different people, things that are done the other way and it doesnt mean its worse. To break my own values and see if I can put them back together in a better way. To challenge myself. To learn language. To check if the love of life is real.

Im not going for better life, its everywhere good if you look for it. People in Mexico might be happier than us by Happy Planet Index or just taking life easier but it doesnt mean they dont have problems and their way of doing is the ideal that we should take over here.

Maybe we should just smile a bit more often here and appreciate what we have and not the other way. Even if government is not perfect, we have the country. Whenever we are.